Mar
11
Dread
The idea of living through my first due date in May fills me with dread. I’m trying not to stress too much about my desire to be pregnant by then, but oh my goodness I hope it happens. But it’s only two months away and even if I am pregnant again, it won’t mean that I’ll be able to have that baby. When I think about that time my heart jumps into my throat and I can’t imagine how I’ll get through it, and how I’ll bear having a new niece as a constant reminder of the baby I lost.
