Sad Week
I had a rough week. I’ve been coming down with a cold and having some monthly hormonal upheaval, so that hasn’t really helped the emotional state. This morning I read on Facebook that YET ANOTHER friend of mine is pregnant. I’ve been feeling deeply sad. Like I said before, I was genuinely relieved that I didn’t get pregnant last month, but nonetheless it’s still been a little difficult. We were trying to conceive, and it didn’t work! I do think we were a little off in our timing, so hopefully we can rectify that this month. A few weeks ago I felt like things had really turned around, but clearly I’m still grieving and that feeling of emptiness has come roaring back. And I feel like getting pregnant will help that, but really getting pregnant means that I have a long three months to survive before the sequential screening can tell us our odds of having a healthy baby this time.
My friend had her baby this week, and we were over there meeting the little one and hearing the birth story, and her mother-in-law said, “So Anne, do you still want a baby after hearing all this?” Um, well, yeah.
