Working on It

Jan 21

No Results

I’ve been waiting for almost 12 weeks for the pathology results from my D&C. I finally got my ass in gear to try and track down what happened with them and why I hadn’t heard anything yet. Apparently my midwife practice was sent a letter about two weeks ago; not sure why they didn’t know what when I talked to them… but I talked to the doctor who performed the D&C and finally got an answer.

And that answer was “the tissue didn’t grow out.”

I will never know what was wrong with my baby. I’ll never have the opportunity to find out whether it was a boy or girl. There’s no way for me to know if what happened to my first pregnancy will have any bearing on any subsequent pregnancies.

I realize this is a VERY common predicament for women who have lost babies. But I’ve spent the last 11 1/2 weeks ASSUMING that I’d get an answer. They got a “clean specimen” (shudder) and the doctor was shocked that they weren’t able to do anything with it.

I don’t know what to think about it, or what to do with this lack of information. I cried a little at first, but I’m done now. I’m a bit shocked, but I feel pretty calm about it. It is what it is. And as that was the last unfinished piece hanging out there, it’s over now.